| An Old Piece of Love |
[Feb. 4th, 2007|04:00 pm] |
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| | AT THE BOTTOM OF EVERYTHING | ] |
Not feeling like updating for obvious reasons but Thanks to an old Austin City Limits for reminding me to review my old music to grasp some kind of sanity.. Ya i know dramatic much??? ;)
So on that note-
:)I do love jim james,
We must talk in every telephone, get eaten off the web
We must rip out all the epilogues from the books we have read
And to the face of every criminal strapped firmly in a chair
We must stare, we must stare, we must stare
We must take all of the medicines too expensive now to sell
Set fire to the preacher who is promising us hell
And in the ear of every anarchist that sleeps but doesn't dream
We must sing, we must sing, we must sing
And it'll go like this
While my mother waters plants my father loads his gun.
He says, "Death will give us back to God,
just like the setting sun
is returned to the lonesome ocean."
And then they splashed into the deep blue sea
It was a wonderful splash
We must blend into the choir, sing as static with the whole
We must memorize nine numbers and deny we have a soul
And to this endless race for property and privilege to be won
We must run, we must run, we must run
We must hang up in the belfry where the bats in moonlight laugh
We must stare into a crystal ball and only see the past
And in the caverns of tomorrow with our flashlights and our love
We must plunge, we must plunge, we must plunge
And then we'll get down there,
way down to the very bottom of everything
and then we'll see it, we'll see it, we'll see it
Oh my morning's coming back
The whole worlds waking up
Oh the city bus is swimming past
I'm happy just because
I found out I am really no one |
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| Its not OVERRRR |
[Sep. 26th, 2006|04:34 pm] |
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| | tears for fears, who killed tangerine | ] |
What you gonna choose the poison or the knife?
Lived with crazy paving all your life
Something in her eyes just tells you no
Hoping conversation starts to flow
Stuck inside a wheel inside a wheel
Wondering everyday is it all for real?
Aching every time a cold wind blows
My love don’t fear the mighty rose
Tangerine, Tangerine
What you gonna choose the poison or the knife?
Lived with crazy paving all your life
Something in her eyes just tells you no
Hoping conversation starts to flow
Stuck inside a wheel inside a wheel
Wondering everyday is it all for real?
Aching every time a cold wind blows
My love don’t fear the mighty rose
Tangerine, Tangerine
What you gonna do when the old man bleeds you dry
Step down from the plane and pluck the eye
Slide in deeper, closer to the bone
Don’t you just wish your heart was made of stone
Waxing like an old cracked forty-five
Counting out the ways you can stay alive
Placed in body bags and filled with stones
My love won’t bleed her waves are foam
And when you think it’s all over
It’s not over, it’s not over
Who killed Tangerine? Prettiest girl I’ve ever seen
And when you think it’s all over
It’s not over, it’s not over |
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| What's Right In My So-Called Life? |
[Sep. 17th, 2006|11:35 am] |
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| | Staralfur, Sigur Ros | ] |
I'm really trying my best not to feel like my life is completely Hopeless. I get maybe one week of a reprieve, where I feel hopeful and that maybe things will get better and then wham!
On Friday I had an appointment with A Dr. Tse who works at Bascom Palmer Eye institute. My original Dr. worked with him. So I decided even though I have no insurance currently and probably wont ever because I have a pre existing condition that , going back to Bascom was my best bet. Also every other Dr. I saw for my eye condition had told me to go back and that they were the best to treat this. So there I went. Anyway's to start off he's this Asian Dr.. which I didn't like even before he spoke.
I just got that indifferent impression when he walked in. Then of course he spoke and it confirmed my suspicions...NO BEDSIDE MANNER whatsoever, had this way of talking to you like you are an idiot and haven't been researching this for the past 3 years and know every medication known to man as well as anything medically necessary. I'm a walking PDR at this stage. So to top things off when I described my symptoms and that no one has been able to help and that I'm in alot of pain, headaches, eye pain , having some blurry vision etc. He says he doesn't think it's the Orbital Myositis acting up anymore since I mentioned migraines daily.
Now He wants me to go to a Neurologist and to get a MRI Sonogram, a Spinal Tap and a whole bunch of other diagnostic tests. Oh and he says all this in a very non chalant tone, Like it's nothing and ok we're done, BYE. So at that point trying not to cry, since crying in front of people is so not my thing( hello closet emotions)let alone in front of this Asian Dr. , who for all I know had Kamikaze relatives. Basically he said since I did have clear signs of a Pseudo-Tumor a few years ago, he doesn't think it would be going on this long. Especially since I'm still on steroids. Now he's thinking it could Intra-Cranial Pressure causing my migraines and that I need to have these tests done ASAP. Greatt huh.
So I absorbed that, broke down walking to the car , had a nice long cry and here i'am. Back to the drawing boards. On a better note,Or just trying to rationalize something if thats at all possible, if it is intra-cranial pressure that means it wouldn't be treated with steroids. Which is great because they make you feel horrible. It be nice to get normal periods, and just feel like myself again But it's still so freaking scary. I just want to curl up and forget I have so many problems. The sad thing is this is only one notch on my belt of road blocks.
I'm just so tired of doctors. So tired of people. Issues, issues. So back to Bascom Palmer to I go to see my original Dr.. who is at least compassionate. I need to find a Neurologist now and have these wonderful tests. I'm trying to push back the fact that I'm a complete mess and scared to death.
Moving on to yesterday and present day, I went to our fresh market and bought 2 dozen roses , one bouquet is this bright orange color and the other is like a yellow peachy color, they make a great contrast. At first they didn't smell but once I put them in water and they bloomed alittle they got so fragrant. It's funny how a little thing like flowers can make you feel alittle better. I'm telling you, 11.99 for 2 dozen roses that look beautiful is a bargain! Have also gotten on the Pomegranate bandwagon, that seems to be going around. Plus the bottles are just pretty ;).
Went to the mall to use up my current credit but ofcourse I came home with nothing. I'm indecisive and a credit only goes so far, I. E not Marc Jacobs far :( I really want boots which I could get but again I like so many things I get lost and then end up leaving without anything.
Later I think I'm going to go and exchange my Tiffany's necklace for something else, maybe get my fave Nordstroms ice tea , people watch and probably buy some music. All of which I hope will temporarily save my sanity.
I keep staring at my six feet under icon partially because if the Jeremy Sisto hotness factor but mostly just thinking how much I miss that show :(. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 23rd, 2006|08:33 pm] |
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| | CAT STEVENS | ] |
So much going on... Oy
Is it weird i wanna be Maude but not in 80 yr old form?
i dont think so...
More of an update later i presume since i've really been slacking.
Oh emotional rollercoaster.
BONSOIT~
love everything
So don't it make you feel sad
'cause I'll drink to you, my baby
I'll think to that, I'll think to that.
Miles from nowhere
Not a soul in sight
Oh yeah, but it's alright
I have my freedom
I can make my own rules
Oh yeah, the ones that I choose
Lord my body has been a good friend
But I won't need it when I reach the end |
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| :) |
[Feb. 8th, 2006|06:06 pm] |
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| | awake | ] |
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| | The Frames, Your Face | ] |
( Need I say More ) |
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| I love this song |
[Feb. 3rd, 2006|08:42 pm] |
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| | james blunt, goodbye my lover | ] |
For some reason although probably not too surprisingly this song just hits all the right notes:
:)
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
In other news it's shocking something as small as just some ice cream and fresh air can do to salvage your mental state. Plus it's not too bad living by the sea..nope
~Florida i hate you and love you all at the same time... |
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| Come on Everybody to The Nth Degree! |
[Nov. 17th, 2005|06:36 pm] |
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| |  stressed | ] |
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| | Morningwood, Nth Degree | ] |
(This entry is from yesterday but LJ decided to Delete it so i had to rewrite everything from memory again. I really hate that.)
So decided I'm gonna try to cook Thanksgiving Dinner for my family. I shall play Martha Stewart for one day. Should be at the very least highly interesting. Can't be that hard seeing as I'm not out to make this huge gourmet feast. Simple is always best in my book.
For some reason the post office's response to sending something to Ottawa was "We don't know how long it'll take to be delivered, you know how the Canadians fee about us". LOL good answer yet not true I hope.
In other news I'm way too thoughtful and nice a person.
Feel free to let me know about any Indie movies I may of missed, although I doubt anyone reads this and also because I've seen so many if not every movie ever made...lol
Goodnight all
P. S. I love Morningwood
So in No Particular Order......
( My 50 Favorite Indie Movies ) |
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| Spiritual Enlightenment my Arse |
[Nov. 14th, 2005|02:22 pm] |
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| |  calm | ] |
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| | simon and garfunkel, america | ] |
You fit in with:
Taoism
Your ideals mostly resemble those of the Taoist faith. Spirituality is the most important thing in your life. You strive to live by all of your ideals, and live a very intellectually focused life.
40% spiritual.
20% reason-oriented.
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Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 13th, 2005|05:19 pm] |
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| |  okay | ] |
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| | You owe me and IOU- Hot Hot Heat | ] |
So yesterday while shopping at Wal-mart which I really never do, I came across a few characters. That's the only store I bet you'd find a 73 year old man buying 7 boxes of condoms while beginning to tell you his life's story on how he's been married 43 years and is still in love with his wife...(OBVIOUSLY)..LOL.
Anyway's I went to see if they had any cd's marked down and of course their selection is little to non existent so I left with nothing. Bought a mirror , and a few cards. A 1.25 soda which to me is highway robbery but when you are in need of a coke what can you do? To make a long and probably boring story short, as I was pushing my red Wal-mart cart to the car, our 1 mph Florida wind decided to topple over the mirror *Smack* onto the concrete.
So now Iam without one 6 dollar full length mirror as well as probably 8 years bad luck. Ugh why me I swear. I basically ripped the mirror off my wall when we were moving and that didn't break it but of course a simple trip from the store to the car did. How odd.
And that is the extent of my weekend. Simple yet pretty good.
List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your Live journal along with your seven songs.
1. The Fray- Over My Head
2. Damien Rice- Professor & La Fille Danse (Live At Cornucopia)
3. Head Automatica- Beating Heart Baby
4. The Elms- Hey Hey
5. Black Rebel Motorcycle Club- Ain't No Easy Way
6. Lifehouse-You and Me
7.The Veronicas- 4ever
P. S. One sign it's holiday time is when Starbucks starts serving their Festive Red Cups.. :)
I finally downloaded the new Marah Album which is really good. Folky and punky all at the same time. New Music makes me happy. |
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| I LOVE THIS SONG |
[Nov. 6th, 2005|01:23 pm] |
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| | THE FRAY, OVER MY HEAD | ] |
I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears and
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on
And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Everyone knows
She's on your mind
Everone knows I'm in
Over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm over my
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 27th, 2005|05:17 pm] |
Iam alive and now with Power so If you live in boca Raton Have hope it'll come back..
Thank God!
Oh the hell we went through. I hope everyones alright..
Hang in there
~Jenn |
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| Calling all fabulous Livejournal users |
[Sep. 1st, 2005|08:08 pm] |
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| | blah | ] |
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| | feist- now at last | ] |
Got the blahs for reasons i dont feel like sharing but in other news, i was wondering if any fellow lj'er could send me "Golddigger" by Kanye west feat. Jamie fox because Damn Kazaa is being a royal arse...
xoxo
~Jenn |
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| Barer of Bad News |
[Aug. 24th, 2005|01:36 pm] |
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| | sad | ] |
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| | run, snow patrol | ] |
Well my Grandmother has breast cancer. They want to do a Mastectomy because they think too much tissue is involved to just have a lumpectomy. I definitely think she should have a second opinion but this doctor is supposed to be one of the best oncologists in Florida. It's just really sad and depressing. Her sister died of the disease. Just another day in my life of worrying. I wished she had been going for regular checks knowing it was in her immediate family but it's a little late for what if's.
~Le Sigh |
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| Fallout Boy love |
[Aug. 23rd, 2005|02:12 pm] |
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| |  for once! | ] |
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| | of all the gin joints in the world | ] |
No news is good news i guess. Why do i feel so old lately?? And also im sad that im again missing an opportunity to see my favorite bands Greenday
and Jimmy Eat World.. Le Sigh!
In random news I just wanted everyone to know that "elemen0p113" is the best lj'er..
thanx again for the songs :)
~Jenn |
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| Always depend on the kindness of strangers... |
[Aug. 22nd, 2005|07:31 pm] |
If anyone has the Fallout Boy song sugar we're going down can you email it to me??
It has been forever stuck in my head and sadly my kazaa is not workin ..
Thankx :) |
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| Mother Superior, Jump The Gun |
[Dec. 29th, 2004|03:31 pm] |
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| |  energetic | ] |
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| | laid, matt nathanson(american wedding soudntrack) | ] |
Went to the Dentist yesterday. Was nervous they'd find somethign wrong but I passed with flying colors. Just have to have all 4 wisdom teeth out because there's no room for them to come in. Im fine with that, they'll put me out however and i'll live on liquids for a few days, could of been worse.
The receptionist was this German man named Dahmer who reminded me of the guy Gerhard Reinke from Jimmy Kimmel who goes around in a speedo interviewing people. Somehow i held back my laughter because i know my sister was thinking the same thing.
The Hygienist recommended 2 oral surgeons she said ones really hot and ones an older man, lol who wants a hot oral surgeon to be working on your mouth. I find that gross. Any doctor period. I don't want some hot guy i want someone i don't even notice.. People are too funny with their logic
Dr. Segler was really nice and said i had great hygiene.. You don't need to show me how to floss.. no comment wink wink..lol
Been feeling pretty good lately saw Open Waters which i decided im never gonna go diving ever! God that movie angered me so much. How neglectful to just leave 2 ppl in the middle of the ocean. Ugh.
Garden State is officially my favorite movie of 2004 and now i'm in love with Zach Braff 10 folds more. Napolean Dynamite doesnt fall much further but it's the kind of movie you laugh more afterwards then during.. heh I love great writing it's so refreshing. Best band of 2004 is the Killers by a landslide.
That's about it gonna do the 2004 cliche goal/new years resolutions later.
Today's a good day plus I have New Years Eve plans! Woo hoo hoo Times they're a changin.
I think it's really gonna be a great and challenging year.
~Side note i got some awesome holiday gifts, even my sister totally surprised me with this ridiculously beautiful Marc Jacobs suede bag.. Ooh la la.
*Tina, you fat lard, come get some DINNER!... Tina, eat. Food. Eat the FOOD! *..lol
Off to go watch The Sweetest Thing again because i love that movie and shower and go be productive or something close to it ;)..
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This bed is on fire with passion and love
The neighbors complain about the noises above
But she only comes when she's on top
My therapist said not to see you no more
She said you're like a disease without any cure
She said I'm so obsessed that I'll become a bore, oh no
Ah you think you're so pretty (eeeeeeeeeeeee eeeeeeeeeeeeeee)
Caught your hand inside the till
Slammed your fingers in the door
Bought the kitchen knives and skewers
Dressed me up in women's clothes
Messed around with gender roles
Dye my eyes and call me pretty
Moved out of the house so you moved next door
I locked you out you cut a hole in the wall
I found you sleeping next to me I thought I was alone
You're driving me crazy when are you coming home |
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| Another Update How exciting |
[Dec. 12th, 2004|10:16 pm] |
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| | Im not okay, MCR | ] |
Okay so i've learned today that i'm not going shopping during the holidays anymore heres why:
So I'm back into the swing of things which is nice, Good ole Boca Raton and i decided to finish my Christmas shopping. So I go into the Gap because i had some money left on a gift card there so i saw this cute denim jacket and proceed to go into the dressing room to try it on. Theres no lady there to lead you into a specific room so i asked this lady standing in front of the mirror if anyone was using this "open" room. She's like no i dont think so and there were just a bunch of clothes lying on the floor anyways just like all dressing rooms.
So i'd say about 30 seconds later this lady starts banging on the door saying Hello my clothes are in there, over and over , Im like i'll be out in a second im not dressed. So then when i opened the door i said it said vacant and no one was aroudn to say otherwise. She to top it off she throws all these hangers and a bunch of clothes at me. I was like god you're a psycho and totally left. God that pissed me off so much. This crazy lady whose out prancing around asking her family if her ass looks big in these jeans.. Uhh i saw here even before we had this run in and i'd say find some other jeans maam. What a bitch.
And that was my enchanting day. People are just nuts during this time of year or any other for that matter. So im steering clear.
So after like an hour of fuming i bought some pretty stuff in American Eagle , Maroon blazer , a few cardigans and these sporty pants to sleep in.
Going to take a nice hot bath and Download some songs.
Stressful times.
The good times are kiling me! |
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| Right Back Where We Started From |
[Dec. 1st, 2004|12:48 am] |
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| | awake | ] |
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| | california, phantom planet | ] |
Post Anonymously With One Of These:
ONE SECRET.
ONE COMPLIMENT.
ONE LOVE NOTE.
LYRICS TO A SONG THAT REMINDS YOU OF ME.
*But Leave A Hint About Who You Are |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 23rd, 2004|12:40 am] |
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Amanda try to get my password and u will suffer! |
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| When there's no where else to run |
[Nov. 22nd, 2004|05:19 pm] |
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| |  ecstatic | ] |
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| | all these these things ive done | ] |
oK POPQUIZ PPL,
Guess who's going to see The Killer's Tomorrow night???????????
~Meeee
So so so excited i was lying in bed lastnight actually 3am and i was like omg the killers concert what is todays date and did i miss it!
Sigh of relief cause it was the 23rd and just what i need to get out of this funk ive been in.
~Over and out, last call for sin
While everyone's lost, the battle is won
With all these things that I've done |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 7th, 2004|02:31 pm] |
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| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | lost in the supermarket, the clash | ] |
Daydream delusion.
Limousine Eyelash
Oh, baby with your pretty face
Drop a tear in my wineglass
Look at those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweet cakes and milkshakes
I am a delusioned angel
I am a fantasy parade.
I want you to know what I think.
Don't want you to guess anymore.
You have no idea where I came from.
We have no idea where we're going.
Launched in life.
Like branches in the river.
Flowing downstream.
Caught in the current.
I'll carry you. You'll carry me.
That's how it could be.
Don't you know me
Don't you know me by now. |
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| Cast My ballot |
[Nov. 2nd, 2004|03:24 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  productive | ] |
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| | mad caddies, one shot | ] |
Well, I voted and I'm happy with my choices. Democratic all the way. Read over the sample ballot before I went to vote because there's alot of little amendments which can be tricky if you don't read over them carefully, also less time consuming. Got my sticker, and I feel good being a first time voter, quite nice. Not a long line, I was in and out of there in about 20 minutes. Well, oiled machine so far, well see how the elderly population of Florida makes out, and for Christ's sake please let Kerry win. Our world won't change in a day and maybe he wont do any better but Bush needs to get out of office, is just a mess.
Also they wouldn't let anyone in with any sort of political attire, and I had on my love, laughter lipstick T-shirt under my blazer so I guess they were just making sure. Weird. Anywhoo time to go relax and flip some channels.
Snootchie Bootchie
~Jenn |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 31st, 2004|01:34 am] |
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| | bouncy | ] |
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| | mess around, ray charles robinson | ] |
Lots going on,Everyone should see the Ray Charles movie, you won't take anything for granted let alone having your sight. Such a great movie, i'll admit i shed a few tears..
Happy Halloween folks, have fun stay safe as usual.
About it just coming out from hibernating.
P.S. To the person whose 5'2 and shrinking, BITCH ADD ME back to your friends list, Have no one else to play fireball with otherwise if you don't :'(
DAYLIGHT SAVINGS IS APPROACHING..YIPPY |
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| Nothing can be sadder then a glass of wine alone |
[Oct. 9th, 2004|02:49 pm] |
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| | cheerful | ] |
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| | cry to me, solomon burke | ] |
Now I love New York with all my heart but For god's sake let the Red Sox kick their cocky arses!..
10 innings heh, love this.
Okay off to do whatever.
Happy Thanksgiving to all the Canucks. |
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